| WOW! It's been forever since I last wrote here.
Anyways to recap:
since my last entry I graduated from G.W.
Fortunately after my last entry, Max had came back to me twice.
UNfortunately, shit hit the fan and we failed.
Now we have become nothing but total strangers.
I have tried countless times to extend my hand to him as a friend...
but sadly, he ignored me. *sigh* Ain't that a bitch huh?
Moving on:
Since graduation I have been trying to get a job.
3 months of waiting and finally i get accepted to work at GameStop.
After 3 months of stalling, I finally decided to join the Army National Guard.
I am planning to attend college this coming spring under the Guard so I'll get 100% tuition pay.
I've been hanging out with a semi new group of friends and they have kept me company.
Don't get me wrong they have helped get by with each day I go through....
but sometimes i wish it was just us 6 again. When I mean 6 i mean
(Max, Me, Mike, Nora, Vince, and Jean) *sigh* They were the best.
But yeah now I roll with (Mike, Vince, Jean, Rey, Cj, Jarred, Brandon, Jay, Kazaa)
Once in a while I meet up with Andrea, who my god, after getting balatsu one night with her....
I realized is my <b>BEST FUCKIN FRIEND</b>
Then there's Marc. After Marc's and I's falling out...we finally reconciled and we're good friends again.
I miss that guy a lot. Next to Mike, Marc is my best guy friend. And I love him for that.
Mike. I guess after him and Nora broke up...Mike and I became really close friends because....
we both share the same loss. It seems that both of our significant others are happier now.
It's great though to be able to talk to someone about Max and in return he talks to me about Nora.
Aeris is now 2 years and 3 months old. My gosh, for a 2 yr. old...she is fuckin adorable.
She is too smart for her own age. But she's such a bundle of joy. I LOVE Aeris with my whole heart.
Sometimes...I can cry to her and it feels like she can feel my hurt. She'd look at me with these eyes....
Hug me tight for as long until i stop crying and she kisses me on my cheek. Then she'd say...
"I love you Tweesha. It's okay" That alone is priceless coming from a 2 yr. old.
Well I guess that's about it. I've lost a couple of close friends and don't get me wrong...
It still hurts up to today...but slowly I'm learning to let go and move on.
On the way, I'm glad to have friends that will be there to help me.
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| wow. prom. Not cliche'd as i thought it'd be.
i'm glad i played.
i'm glad i stayed after playing.
i'm glad i stayed out with friends.
i'm glad i ate out with Funky Monkey Robot Killers
i'm glad i stayed at PIC.
heh. now i can't forget prom night.  |
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| - Best I Ever Had
I miss Max a whole fuckin lot.
pardon my language.
I wish we can have back what we once had.
unfortunately...things don't work that way.
Anyways..i might be going to my senior prom.
Personally, i don't want to go. I don't care much for it.
The days are going by fast. Farewell GW. |
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| it hurts so much to see him happy without me.
it sucks being the nice "guy".
I give it all up for someone else to have a chance to be happy.
nice "guys" always get the shitty end of it all. motherfucker.
putting that aside.....
saturday was pretty great. I mean, majority of the day i spent it with friends.
I haven't used that word in a long time, nonetheless hang out with them.
So it was all good.
The music was hands down awesome. Props to everyone that played.
Amorosity got to play, and i say that was pretty fun. Hooray for Improvising.
Then i got to play with unsub which was fuckin fun. Both Amorosity and Unsub got a great crowd.
Damn do i miss that adrenaline.
Koufu and Core played and as always i have a good time.
Koufu played a lot of old songs that i absolutely love. Hooray for music.
Today I went to a paintball league tournament.
It was actually pretty cool considering i don't know shit about paintball.
I learned a lot and picked up their terminology. I'll probably go next week again.
Maybe pick up on paintball. It's a pretty fun sport. |
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| so much shit has gone down.
There's nothing to do but take it like it is......
I've lost another great person in my life. 
i can't believe it happened to me twice.
putting all the negatives aside, festival was fun.
I love being on my toes and working non-stop.
I seriously live for this shit.
Being back at school and all makes me feel like i'm being held down.
But hey......
Big congratulations to GWHS Concert Band
for winning the Gold for the 2nd Tumon Bay Band Festival.
Can't wait for the 3rd TBBF, |
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